In James 1:4 The Lord talks to us about growing and not letting our problems keep us from the wisdom He is trying to teach us. I had an experience last night that tested that principal in a very strong way. We know as Christians that controlling our temper and staying calm under attack is a clear view on how we are doing in our walk and maturity in Christ.
For the past four months I have been helping a fellow writer with His manuscript. When I first read it I felt a strong feeling deep in my stomach that the Lord wanted me to help this Author whose work was written from pain and despair.
I offered to help edit when I quickly realized it wasn't an edit at all but a complete rewrite, even Title change was necessary in order to convey what he originally set out to say, but his emotions Got in the way. After rewriting 8 chapters the auther asked if I would consider co-writing the book, since in reality it really was more of a journal, where most chapters were four to Six thousand words, in a forty chapter book.
Since it was not "War and Peace" but a true love story I knew my work was cut out for me, and in praying over it I decided to go forward, put my book to the side and help get this done in a fabulous way; even brought a lot more of God into the book which is always a great thing.
I had friends say, " all you have is an email, how do you know he will keep his word, you're putting in long hours and have been working on this for months." I answered by saying that I prayed over it and I trust God to have my back, and I believe in him and his word.
Last night I went to look at the new website he said he created, since the last one had a different title, and the book is now so different he just created a whole new place to showcase the new book. Boy did the devil have me in the corner, when I went to search for the site the link came up with another woman's name, his name, and no mention of me, other than to say I was helping with the rewrite (In very small print and @ the bottom of the page)
and he promoted my Kindle version of my Published Book, which I have asked him to change since December, and in big print the words AUTHOR Blah blah blah, his name only, across the top.
My first reaction was to call him and upset I said " with all the work, title change, video idea,( which was a completely different concept from what he was going to do) I asked how he could do this, I than said realizing I was being controlled by myself and not the Holy Spirit that I was to mad to talk and I'd appreciate if he could call me later.
I felt as if I had let God down in my walk, I am more mature in the Lord then this. After all, I know He has my back, and even after these months and nights without sleep, if he does do the wrong thing I know my God would want me to forgive and forget, and that He will replace that wrong, ten fold.
So though I know I was forgiven the moment I asked for it, which was immediately after hanging up the phone, I still needed our Father's specific word this morning to remind me, that though my faith and walk is a strong an intimate one, there will be times when I fall short and need to check myself, and ,( I was also grateful that I know His word well, which really helps when you need a specific clarity)I felt so much better after reading this chapter this morning, because it was a confirmation that for every circumstance, there is direction and passage in which I can find comfort, confirmation, solitude, and correction.
I hope this story may encourage my fellow brothers and sisters to remember that the closer our walk, the stronger the attacks will come; but we have our sword and weapon in the word and in the Holy Spirit. May you all have a fruitful, peaceful week, and if you come under attack remember everything we need is in His loving words....God Bless you and keep you all in His loving embrace...
* I have added a discount code to my book page as a few of you have shown interest in my book and I had it in place for family and friends, with all your support on my blog and towards my family, I wanted to pass it onto you as well. It will save you 3.00 per book making it only 6.99. The Lord is blessing me on so many levels right now, even when I am in pain I am at peace and joyful, and I just want to say thank you all for being a big part of that. Love and Hugs Patricia